Spaghetti-Day!

Spaghetti-Day!

Tuesday, May 22


Long Time...
I hate to say this, but it still hurts. Every single time I hear any spoken words about a certain subject, it drills this hole in my heart that is so damn hard to fill. Everytime I get close I then relapse to a time when I felt like I meant something and I loved the way I felt every minute of it. Now I just feel as if I am trapped in a net of my own tangled emotions, but if there was really a place for me I would be there by now. By society I am just a nothing, a loser and a pathetic excuse for a human being. Now I truely understand the meaning of not being wanted, but I am okay with it at this point I feel as if I have always lived with this feeling and it compelles me to write poetry and I don't know why... Maybe it's my brain telling me I need help, or maybe I just need to wipe away this constant sorrow that lingers over me. I think I am done expressing emotion at all. Then maybe I can see what's really wrong with me. The freaky thing about all of this though. Is I still feel the love that had been gone for such a long time.

Please...
What's wrong with me?

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