Spaghetti-Day

2011-06-10T20:49:00.000-07:00

There is something wrong with my brain this evening.
I'm not sure I can handle this..
But I think to myself that it not close to mattering,
but there's still a void.

I just don't understand, and don't want too.

Ugh.

2011-02-19T12:55:00.001-08:00

How long do you need to bug someone you love before they give up and do what you want?
Lol.

The Used - Taste of Ink

2011-02-09T14:15:00.001-08:00

Is it worth the can you even hear me
Standing with your spotlight on me
Not enough to feed the hungry
I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old
It's four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be free

So here I am it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this

Won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing top the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see it
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
We'll drink and dance the night away
We'll drink and dance the night away

So here I am it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
Savor every moment of this

(As long as you're alive here I am..)

As long as you're alive
Here I am
I promise I will take you there

As long as you're alive
Here I am
I promise I will take you there

Won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing top the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see it
So long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
So long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there

So here I am it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
Savor every moment of this
Savor every moment of this

Fuck Hamlet.

2011-01-25T19:31:00.000-08:00

I have to memorize a soliloquy from Hamlet.
If you commonly read my blog, you probably know I'm pretty fucking pissed.
Ugh.

Making a New CD

2011-01-24T13:00:00.000-08:00

Have a hard time with this, so I'll try to organize my thoughts here.

1 - Alamo is no place for dancing - The Scene Aesthetic
2 - Close yet far - Cky
3 - The Sound of Settling - Death Cab for Cutie
4 - A Favor House Atlantic - Coheed and Cambria
5 - Wont Back Down - Tom Petty
6 - I Caught Fire - The Used
7 - Lunacy Fringe - The Used
8 - Collide - Howie Day
9 - Blue and Yellow - The Used
10 - Almost - Bowling for Soup
11 - Outside - Staind
12 - Epiphany - Stanid

I give up. I don't really like music as much anymore.

Dear Teacher,

2011-01-21T18:09:00.000-08:00

I wanted to thank you for your help today, but I also wanted to apologize as well.
I mean I doubt that's how you really want to end your days.
But as for what you said about your wife and her dealing with things like this, I give you complete permission to tell her anything we talked about.
I just know I need some help, and I'm not like embarrassed of anything or anything like that so I'm pretty much open to talk to anyone that can give me answers.
I didn't want to put a huge load on anybody or anything like that, just had to get it out there you know.
Teachers are good people, what you guys do is beyond extraordinary.
Usually it takes kids awhile to realize that, but at some point everyone can see the impact you have on us.

I just want you to know that I look up to you as a teacher and as a person.
It's nice to know that people can devote their lives to something that they feel strongly.
I mean getting diagnosed with diabetes as a child has to be rough, and knowing that you can overcome that and take up in interest in physical education and anatomy is amazing.
It's amazing to know people can experience something so terrible, but use it to teach and inform people is just amazing.
That's what makes me feel better, knowing that there are people like you in this world and that I might be able to use my problems for the greater good someday.
And, I thank you for that as well. Hope.
You didn't let your disability get to you, it made you strong, and I hope that I can do the same.
I know I have potential and my future is bright, I just need to get over this patch.
Not trying to tell a sob story, but I didn't have many positive role models in my life, mostly give-uppers.
So it's nice to know I can go to school and be around people I see as being positive people.

Anyways, I'm rambling.
I just wanted to make sure you knew how important your role is as a teacher, and that you really helped me feel better today.
You're a great role model, and I hope that someday someone will look at me the same way.
Thank you.

2011-01-19T14:22:00.000-08:00

I'm too lazy.

2011-01-17T11:00:00.000-08:00

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere

Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very, very
Mad world, mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me, what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very, very
Mad world, mad world, enlarging your world
Mad world

Ughh.

2011-01-13T15:19:00.001-08:00

Why be mean when you can just be nice?

You're gonna be a big big star ♥

2011-01-11T16:59:00.000-08:00

Not the kind that you see with all the money and cars,
but the kind where people know your name.
The beautiful kind.

If I won the lottery.

2011-01-10T14:43:00.000-08:00

If I was to happen to win the lottery (and actually get tons of money) this is what I would do:

(This list is in no order.)

Help out my family, a lot.
Start scholarships for the arts and also academics.
Donate to a buttload of charities that I think are actually doing something.
Start a lending agency nationally for entrepreneurs.
Publish Davlin's book globally, and have it translated into many languages.
Pay off my hospital bills.
Rebuild the town pool.
Sponsor children globally.
Hold community events.
Buy property and rent it out to people for a fair price.
(Maybe just build multiple apartment complexes?)
Buy some new clothes at the Mill Creek Mall.
Buy small business stocks and help boost the economy.
Meet Oprah.
Get a PhD in every profession I ever thought was interesting.
Travel to places I've always wanted to go.. (Arizona (:)
Drop money randomly on the ground while walking.
Treat my nieces to a wonderful princess party.
Open a hospital.
Build something useful.
Give them something to talk about.

Success!

2011-01-09T16:06:00.001-08:00

I've died my hair red.
I would put a picture, but I hate taking pictures of myself.

It's not amazing, but it is interesting.

I wish I was a boy.

2011-01-05T18:38:00.000-08:00

When I look at girls that are prettier then me, I start feeling really depressed.
It's stupid.
Why am I so obsessed with being awkward.
I don't really want to be around people anyways, so why do I care about them not wanting to be around me?
Maybe it's the fact that people warm up to me and then leave me when I need them the most.
But when do I establish this need factor?
I wish I knew so I could kill it; I hate leaving myself open like that.
I guess it's time to dye my hair again. (That's usually what I do when I feel unsatisfactory.)
I guess something inside me thinks changing my hair will make me feel better about myself.
Most people just wear make-up, but I rock that natural look.
I might just be the only teenage girl that doesn't paint her face on in the morning.
Sometimes I do, but those are usually days when I wake up really early with a blank canvas and noting better to do... But I used to be different.
I used to have friend, and love people.
I used to not feel anxious, and just love a good time.
I used to look pretty and act pretty.
But now I'm nothing, and have no one.
What ever shall I do?..

But I guess the hair will have to do, and here's some pictures you can enjoy:

Close yet far.

2011-01-04T13:16:00.000-08:00

I kinda wish I knew what was wrong with me.
But then depression wouldn't be such an adventure I suppose.

Shakespeare, Brilliant or..?

2011-01-03T12:43:00.000-08:00

I'm tormented by the thought of Shakespeare as a writer.
I mean he's so famous of course, and also known as one of the best writers of all time.. But it he?
Maybe he's a really shitty writer, so shitty that no one can determine the true meaning of what he's saying therefore leaves much room for debate.
But that's the purpose of writing anyways right?
Leaving the audience to decide.
Like this:

I once knew a pig named Fred. I killed him and ate him for dinner.

Okay, firstly, you're probably thinking okay that's cool. You ate a pig named Fred.
But what if I give more details..

I had a neighbor, his name was Fred. He was a pig, and I hated him. So one day while he was asleep I snuck in and murdered him. I ate him for dinner the next day.

Is that what you thought I was going for?

Shakespeare conflicts himself so much, it's annoying.
Such as in Hamlet, when Hamlet meets his fathers ghost and his father tells him he's being tormented in the afterlife for all the bad he's done.
Later in the story, Hamlet is trying to figure out whether there is or is not life after death.
Well DUH DUMBASS you just met your father's ghost, clearly somethings going on.

I don't know what the point of this rant is, I suppose it's just the fact that Shakespeare kinda pisses me off.
But I will give the benefit of the doubt, I do not know Shakespeare personally, nor know Old English.

There is however one sonnet from Shakespeare I enjoy, it is as follows:
My mistress' eyes are nothing like the sun;
Coral is far more red than her lips' red:
If snow be white, why then her breasts are dun;
If hairs be wires, black wires grow on her head.
I have seen roses damask'd, red and white,
But no such roses see I in her cheeks;
And in some perfumes is there more delight
Than in the breath that from my mistress reeks.
I love to hear her speak, yet well I know
That music hath a far more pleasing sound.
I grant I never saw a goddess go:
My mistress, when she walks, treads on the ground.
And yet, by heaven, I think my love as rare
As any she belied with false compare.

Pokemon

2011-01-02T18:14:00.000-08:00

I'm going to watch all the pokemon episodes.
Pokemon is still cool,

So anyways...

2011-01-01T02:46:00.000-08:00

Yeah, my blog is super ugly right now but oh well I'll fix it later.
I must sleep before my eyeballs burst.

<3

Hello again!

2011-01-01T01:08:00.000-08:00

It's been a long while since I've actually posted a blog.
Talked to Drin for awhile today, that was nice.

Happy New Years!
Sweet dreams.

2010-04-19T21:58:00.002-07:00

Yesterday as follows:

School gay as usual.
My dog ate a syboxin.
I almost had to call an ambulance for Joe because he was sleeping and I thought he was dead.
Now I'm having a mini slumber party..

Today as follows:

It's 4/20.

2010-04-16T10:46:00.002-07:00

So I have been reading Twilight a lot lately.
It kinda reminds me of my life sometimes.
Edward and Jacob.. It's eerily similar.
Don't ask though, please.

2010-04-10T18:29:00.002-07:00

I'll take my twist with a shout.

Christmas

2009-12-25T08:30:00.004-08:00

doesn't feel a lot like Christmas to me.

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Shit

2009-12-06T19:14:00.003-08:00

Let's talk about shit shall we?
Pretend I'm a little voice in your head.
You stub your toes, you say "shit!" I say "where?"
You walk in a room, you say it smells like shit in here. I say what kind of shit? Human. Dog. Cow. Raccoon?
You say this is the shit! I say, how do you know that?
Let's take ourselves back a couple centuries. You look at Rasputin say DID YOU SEE THAT SHIT?! He would probably be like wtf yo.
We use shit so much in our language it's almost ridiculous.
I say shit just as much as the rest guy, but honestly? Does what we say even make since?
It don't even matter. But I know for a fact if pixels could shit, that would be my blog.

This song is stuck in my head...

2009-11-02T09:44:00.003-08:00

1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

Give me more lovin' than I've ever had
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you

Give me more lovin' from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Best that I've had, I'm so glad that I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

1, 2, 3, 4
I love you
I love you

Persuasive?

2009-10-26T09:33:00.009-07:00

I need a persuasive speech topic.
Any help? I'm drawing blanks.

Rash sha sha

2009-10-05T08:14:00.003-07:00

We put the FUN in DYSFUNCTIONAL!
wee babers, wee.

Oh yeah!

2009-09-01T16:55:00.003-07:00

Do you know what it's like to be married?
Well I think I do, and sometimes it's amazing, then it's not.
It's like a rollercoaster.
I shouldn't be complaining, at least I'm happy.
Yet, I complain about everything..

And to Jenna: I doubt anyone's gonna read any personal blogs of ours.
And if they decide to I might as well give them something interesting to read.

I got my Depo shot today, and I'm kinda freaked out cause they said I was going to gain all this weight and like bleed a lot and stuff.
Plus they said my boobs would get smaller! WTH?!
I don't think that's even possible with me, but whatever.
Oh an next time they stick the needle in my butt.
Also, I got my tyroid tested. I may have problems with that which would SUCK really really badly.
Oh, and my blood pressure was 134/84 and the norm for 30 year old people is 130/80.
The norm for people my age is 120/70 xS
I think it's because I smoke though, whatever who cares.
Anyway, yeah that's about it. Bye.

2009-08-26T08:33:00.004-07:00

It's been a whole year.
I've never felt so loved.

2009-08-11T23:10:00.004-07:00

i look sick.

2009-08-04T15:19:00.004-07:00

well, i'm okay.
i guess that's good news.

lawl.

2009-06-26T16:37:00.004-07:00

getting your permit is the easiest way to scare your parents.

:]

2009-06-21T22:40:00.003-07:00

where are we?
what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to form
crop circles in the carpet
sinking feeling

spin me round again
and rub my eyes,
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first

oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines (oh, you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears (hearts)
they were here first

Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say?
Mmmm that it's just what we need
you decided this
whatcha say?
Mmmm what did she say?

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
speak no feeling no I don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs

(hide and seek)
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a (you don't care a) bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
oh no, you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit

Yeoh.

2009-06-14T17:35:00.003-07:00

If you seen a bitchy girl in a pink kayak today.. that was me.

2009-06-14T02:08:00.003-07:00

i just saw a figure run past the doorway between the livingroom and the kitchen.
i almost shit my pants, and i'm scared to death right now.
salutations.

2009-06-11T06:21:00.009-07:00

I think I should spend less time being jealous of other people's abilities, and go shine on my own.

Pussy little children, with their fully automatics, like to push the weak around.

2009-06-10T12:57:00.003-07:00

I realized today that I stalk people.
Like, not like a freak or anything, but I defiantly do.
The sad part is I don't have a life, so that's about all I do.
I don't even know the last time I had a good time.
Probably forever ago.
I don't have a job.
Still haven't gotten my permit.
Still haven't gotten my tooth filled.
Still haven't set up an eye appointment.
Hmm, it's quite funny how I'm just rotting.
I'm not depressed, well, not yet anyways.
But it's summertime so it's coming.

If you be my star, I'll be your sky.

2009-06-05T19:34:00.004-07:00

My fingers ache from playing guitar, It's almost worthless.

Average.

2009-05-26T18:22:00.004-07:00

Ordinary.
Everyday.
Superhero.

I've watched the same movie 7 times in a row. This is the gayest anniversary ever.

2009-05-25T12:59:00.003-07:00

Some things can just work themselves out.

2009-05-19T06:01:00.009-07:00

sorry I haven't blogged much lately.
no computer. =[
soon though, soon.

James,

2009-04-27T16:35:00.004-07:00

Is my baby.

Omgosh.

2009-04-26T21:01:00.004-07:00

I'm so loved.

It's so pitiful what you are, as beautiful as you are.

2009-04-12T10:43:00.003-07:00

It's hard for me to use my thought process.
All this noise.
I don't think I shall blog today.

i love you.

2009-04-11T11:13:00.006-07:00

a whole bunch.

2009-04-09T13:08:00.003-07:00

I hate the world atm.
I love how the world is so caught up in looks.
Like if you're not showing your ass then stfu.
Like seriously.
Am I the only girl left in the world that hasn't slutted myself to get ahead.
I think I might be.
And this ego shit omg.
If you're not wearing this your not cool.
If you don't have this you're not cool.
If you don't act like this your not cool.
I feel like I'm trapped.
Everyone wants to be better then everone else, and it's never going to happen.
Maybe people should take some time to figure that out.
For gods sake, I don't think my self esteem can get any lower.

Dinosaurs go rawr.

2009-04-07T17:27:00.004-07:00

I'm really bored.
-insert boredom emoticon here-

But you can't take me alive!

2009-04-02T18:05:00.003-07:00

I'm getting quite laid back in my old age.
It's kinda funny actually.
Heh, old age.

Cell Phones Suck A Lot!

2009-03-23T16:08:00.004-07:00

So I finally put music on my phone, and the headphone jack is way to small.
It's kinda really stupid.
Oh, and today was an off day.
But I'll get through, and so will you.
It's not as big a deal as you think it is.

2009-03-22T16:48:00.003-07:00

I
feel
like
there's
feelings
you're
running
from.
And
fyi,
you
can't
run
forever.
take it from someone who knows.

I love you James Michael.

2009-03-19T13:01:00.004-07:00

Well we scheme and we scheme but we always blow it
we've yet to crash, but we still might as well enjoy it
Standing at a light switch to each east and west horizon,
Every dawn you're surprising,
And the evening was consoling
Saying "See it wasn't quite as bad as"
Well, it would've been, could've been worse than you would ever know.

2009-03-11T18:25:00.004-07:00

I have another long lost sister.
It's fucking insane.

2009-03-10T19:37:00.004-07:00

View my page on Spaghetti

There are no flowers, no not this time.

2009-03-09T08:56:00.003-07:00

I'm not much for blogging lately.
It's not that I lost interest or anything like that,
but I only seem to update this when I am extremely sad or too happy.
To post something remotly interesting, I will never look at Kevin the same way again.

I wont go, until you come outside.

2009-03-05T17:10:00.004-08:00

& this weekend is going to be the best one ever.

Darcy, when I met you I was 5 years too young.

2009-03-04T15:55:00.003-08:00

School is insanity, but it's the one thing that always pays off in the end.

THIS IS THE ANTHEM, TROW ALL YOUR HANDS UP!

2009-02-28T10:04:00.006-08:00

WOAH!

I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING@!!!!!!@#@#$$%#$!^@#$^@#@!#@!

you wont be 17 forever.

2009-02-26T17:58:00.003-08:00

uoiouonhewpkyyo’utfbreuaile

it's been six months.
surprised you put up with me this long.
i love you.

Why do I feel this party's over?

2009-02-24T07:34:00.003-08:00

Two words.
Ugghghghghghghgh uhhhggrrgghhghhghghg.

It's like learning to fly, or falling in love.

2009-02-22T14:12:00.004-08:00

I have a giant urge to get up and sing at the top of my lungs.
Dance in the streets.
Sit around a camp fire.
Jump of a cliff into deep water.
Play guitar till my fingers bleed.
Hug everyone I see.
Ride in a car to California.
Be freeeeeeee.

We might spell you, but we're nothing like you.

2009-02-21T14:06:00.003-08:00

I'm trying this new thing.
It's called "Keeping in Touch".
I'm done being a bitch.
Take me for what I am.
I love you guys, I'm sorry.
I've just been gone for so long,
but I'm back now!

This is my december.

2009-02-20T21:25:00.003-08:00

Soo anyways, here I am blogging.
I actually don't know what to say.
I wish I could say something witty and smartassish, but I don't think I can.
I was riding in Josh's truck when I saw the "Halfway Motel".
It made me smile when I realized that we're always at a destination,
we're always half way from something. Many things actually.
Every step we take is somewhere.
Where we go is somewhere and it is some distance from somewhere else.
(If that makes any sense.)
To be quite honest it makes my world feel so much better.
No matter where I stand it has some importance.
Especially when I'm standing next to you.

I know that I had sworn I'd never trust anyone again...

2009-02-18T18:20:00.003-08:00

There's this thing about me that many don't understand.
It's called "The Duke".
That's me.
The one who messes everything up.

You.

2009-02-17T06:17:00.003-08:00

There's the moon glowing gold on a cold night.
There's a blossoming tree swaying in a light breeze.
There's sparkling water under a baby blue sky.
There's a rainbow so close you can almost taste it.
Northern lights, a school of sunfish, a beatdown park basking in the glory of the sun.
And then there's you; The most epic of beautiful.
Your name sings to me like a song.
A three word poem that warms my soul.
And that's you, my love.
That's you.

I R OLD!

2009-02-15T16:10:00.003-08:00

I just realized that I'm not a little kid anymore.
My feelings follow me through the years.
I was weak and helpless at 11..
I'll feel weak and helpless at 16.
Although, now I have a wonderful family, boyfriend, and puppy to help me out.
I'm making such a positive step in life!

LookoutlifehereIcome!!

Mmhmm, things are good.

2009-02-14T09:50:00.003-08:00

High rise, veins of the avenue
Bright eyes and subtle variations of blue
Everywhere is balanced there like a rainbow above you
Street lights glisten on the boulevard
And cold nights make staying alert so hard
For heaven's sake, keep me awake so I won't be caught off guard
Clearly I am a passerby but I'll find a place to stay
Dear pacific day, won't you take me away?
Small town hearts of the New Year
Brought down by gravity, crystal clear
City fog and brave dialogue converge on the frontier
Make haste, I feel your heartbeat
With new taste for speed, out on the street
Find a road to a humble abode where both of our routes meet
The silver sound is all around and the colors fall like snow
The feeling of letting go, I guess we'll never know

Cheer up and dry your damp eyes and tell me when it rains
And I'll blend up that rainbow above you and shoot it through your veins
Cuz your heart has a lack of color and we should've known
That we'd grow up sooner or later cuz we wasted all our free time alone

Your nerves gather with the altitude
Exhale the stress so you don't come unglued
Somewhere there is a happy affair, a ghost of a good mood
Wide eyed, panic on the getaway
The high tide could take me so far away
VCR's and motorcars unite on the Seventh Day
A popular gauge will measure the rage of the new Post-Modern Age
Cuz somewhere along the line all the decades align

We were the crashing whitecaps
On the ocean
And what lovely seaside holiday, away
A palm tree in Christmas lights
My emotion
Struck a sparkling tone like a xylophone
As we spent the day alone

:]

2009-02-09T11:51:00.003-08:00

I can't wait to play in spring rain.

Today.

2009-02-08T14:02:00.003-08:00

Today in church, I got saved.
Keep any negative comments to yourself.

Death.

2009-02-07T21:51:00.003-08:00

Death is lingering around Pennsylvania.
-sigh- It's such a scary thought.
This is a silent prayer for those who have passed.
Or those who are having trouble coping with that fact.
I wish you luck on your journeys.
You are all loved and you will be missed.

2009-02-06T17:09:00.004-08:00

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Stability	\|\|\|\|	18%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Artistic	\|\|	10%
Religious	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Humanitarian	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Family drive	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Physical Fitness	\|\|	%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Honor	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Thriftiness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%

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I hate my body.

2009-02-06T08:29:00.003-08:00

I wish it worked properly just like everyone elses.
-sigh-

You should try saying no once in awhile.

2009-02-05T08:07:00.003-08:00

The bangel I'm wearing right now is orange.
I am sitting with the light hitting it.
They're very beautiful, the little things.

Superb!

2009-02-04T16:47:00.003-08:00

Sometimes I wonder what life would be like as a banana.

We're all winners.

2009-02-02T11:54:00.003-08:00

Sometimes things are strange.
I get caught in it; just a lapse of time.
I can sit and wait for it to get worse..
But nothing ever gets that bad.
We're still alive, we're all still winners.
Over the years I've learned and grown.
I've been molded into myself.
Looking back I now know that I've been gifted.
I have a voice.
I'm now trying to learn how to use it.

I think I'm going to clean up the house, and make my family dinner.
I want to surprise them, do something nice.
Maybe I can try out that newly acquired smile that I have.
Yah know, the one that isn't fake.

2009-02-01T07:24:00.007-08:00

He walks in the room, she smiles sweetly.
On the outside it's wonderful, but on the inside
we're dying.

Chevelle - Send the Pain Below

2009-01-30T09:42:00.003-08:00

So today, I've peed 19 times.
I've drank 1 mug of cranberry juice, and 5 mugs of water.
=[

I R WATER BALLOON!
*asplode*

I can't believe it's happening.

2009-01-29T07:22:00.003-08:00

James and I have been dating fr 5 monthes now, and it's amazing.
He means so much to me; I love him.
I love knowing he cares.
I love his smile.
I love his laugh.
I love his dimples.
I love the way he looks at me.
I love the way he talks to me.
I love how he's there for me.
I have his heart, and he has mine.
Forever.

Sometimes.

2009-01-28T09:37:00.004-08:00

I think about beauty.
I have a much differant persepctive on it then the rest of the world.
I can find Zen in all the wierdest places.
Everything has it's own special beauty.
I wish some could be me really.
Just look at life through my eyes, feel what I feel.
I'm in a really wierd mood today.
I'm feeling unique.
Important.

Understand.

2009-01-27T09:30:00.003-08:00

I'm begginning to understand why people just want to give up.
We're all never good enough.
All we do is hide behind are emotions and be fake and pretend nothing's wrong.
I enjoy my daydreams more then this life sometimes.
I wish everything could just be perfect.
I shouldn't have to pretend.
It should just be.

I have a family now I have no friends.
I'm destined to not be happy.

:[

Warning:

2009-01-24T11:15:00.004-08:00

when I'm eating, please keep fingers, or any objects you want to keep far away from my mouth.

Disorder!.. Disorder!.. Disooooorder.

2009-01-23T09:33:00.003-08:00

When I became the sun
I shone life into the man's hearts
When I became the sun
I shone life into the man's hearts

James,

2009-01-22T17:42:00.004-08:00

You've taught me how to be stronger,
I love you for that.

Someday my over reactions may be at a minimum.

Love,
Danielle

This is me.

2009-01-22T09:18:00.003-08:00

It's hard for me to understand myself sometimes.
It makes me think back to when we where kids.
We where a lot more in touch with ourselves.
We tested ourselves a lot more,
like I can do this.
After a trip to the emergency room, you learn,
hey I'm not going to try to do that anymore.
Now, we don't know.
We get so complicated.
I'de like to go back.
Maybe I can learn how to be less insecure.
Maybe I can learn how to love those I hate.
Maybe I can learn to just let it be.

I really should be working on my english.

2009-01-19T09:41:00.005-08:00

But I have to do 45 notecards.
Oh yeah, I'm not really looking forward to it.
:[

It's cool though, because I'm the farthest in my class on this project.
I could do nothing for a week and still be, haha.

Teenagers are stupid.

woah.

2009-01-17T11:52:00.003-08:00

If beauty sits the child's kiss
Of laughter I amend
Can you catch her if she runs?

With this I would share with you
All of this count to no end

Behind your sealed eyes you miss
All that I've done for you
Will you catch me when I run?

If timing play evident
What will you say when you're late?

Stay with me and fall asleep
Pray to God for no bad dreams

Stay with me and fall asleep
Pray to God for no bad dreams

Here... I'm still waiting here, my dear
For one kiss from you
So here... I'm still waiting here, my dear
To kill all of you
To kill all of you

Well..

2009-01-15T17:16:00.003-08:00

This is epic.

This is great.

This is school.

This is me.

Oh how I've changed,
and oh how wonderful it's been.

2009-01-12T15:51:00.003-08:00

YES! IT IS DDR2! IN YOUR FACE KARMA!

I dreamed of her the night before...

2009-01-10T14:30:00.003-08:00

It's snowing so much, like I don't think it's ever going to stop.
It reminds me of this song:

REM - It's the End of the World as We Know It
That's great, it starts with an earthquake, birds and snakes, an aeroplane and Lenny Bruce is not afraid.
Eye of a hurricane, listen to yourself churn - world serves its own needs, dummy serve your own needs.
Feed it off an aux speak, grunt, no, strength, Ladder start to clatter with fear fight down height.
Wire in a fire, representing seven games, a government for hire and a combat site.
Left of west and coming in a hurry with the furies breathing down your neck.

Team by team reporters baffled, trumped, tethered cropped.
Look at that low playing! Fine, then.
Uh oh, overflow, population, common food, but it'll do.
Save yourself, serve yourself.
World serves its own needs, listen to your heart bleed dummy with the rapture and the revered and the right, right.
You vitriolic, patriotic, slam, fight, bright light, feeling pretty psyched.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

Six o'clock - TV hour. Don't get caught in foreign towers.
Slash and burn, return, listen to yourself churn.
Locking in, uniforming, book burning, blood letting.
Every motive escalate. Automotive incinerate.
Light a candle, light a votive. Step down, step down.
Watch your heel crush, crushed, uh-oh, this means no fear cavalier.
Renegade steer clear!
A tournament, tournament, a tournament of lies.
Offer me solutions, offer me alternatives and I decline.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

The other night I dreamt of knives, continental drift divide.
Mountains sit in a line, Leonard Bernstein. Leonid Brezhnev, Lenny Bruce and Lester Bangs.
Birthday party, cheesecake, jelly bean, boom!
You symbiotic, patriotic, slam book neck, right? Right.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it. can't I have some time alone?
It's the end of the world as we know it can't I have some time alone? and I feel fine...fine...

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it. can't I have some time alone?
It's the end of the world as we know it can't I have some time alone? and I feel fine...fine...

"i could right a book on how pretty you are"

2009-01-08T17:21:00.003-08:00

Miley Cyrus makes me insecure.

grr.

2009-01-06T13:00:00.003-08:00

There's a new girl in school, she's so mysterious, and just amazing.
I wouldn't really know though; I couldn't get the courage to talk to her.
Yes, Danni, incapable of talking to people.
-sigh-

2009-01-05T12:31:00.004-08:00

I have a puppy. I can hear him whining in the other room.
He whines so much and so loudly, and the fluctuation of his voice makes it seem as if there is a very large group of puppies crying in the kitchen.
This annoys me very much.
I didn't want a dog, puppiy, furry football or whatever.
I don't want the responsibility of taking care of something that isn't even mine, or that I didn't want in the first place.
I refuse to get attached to it; I refuse!
Yes, I am lazy, very much so.

"And when I see you, I really see you upside down."

2009-01-04T15:30:00.003-08:00

Everything is upside down.
When you're upside down things are really right side up but still upside down.
Turn your head sideways, does it make any difference?
I don't like this. xS

Top 25 Songs!

2009-01-03T11:58:00.003-08:00

25- Pink Floyd - Another Brick in the Wall
24- Tegan and Sarah - I know, I know, I know
23- The Killers - When You Where Young
22- Elliott Smith - Sweet Adeline
21- Second Hand Serenade - Fall For You
20- Limp Buiskit - Faith
19- Metro Station - Seventeen Forever
18- All American Rejects - Gives you Hell
17- Linkin Park - Shadow of the Day
16- ICP - Another Love Song
15- Hollywood Undead - No.5
14- Shifty - Slide along Side
13- Good Charlotte - The River
12- Incubus - Pardon Me
11- Kill Paradise - Candy Land Wedding
10- Modest Mouse - Little Motel
9- The Eels - Fresh Feeling
8- Metro Station - Kelsey
7- Blue October - Calling You
6- A Day To Remember - You Had Me At Hello
5- Seether - Tongue
4- Mayday Parade - I'd Hate To Be You When...
3- A Rocket to the Moon - Fear of Flying (acoustic)
2- The Summer Obsession - I Miss You
1- Sugarcult - Back to California

Download! :]

My New Favorite Song..<3

2009-01-01T14:57:00.004-08:00

Imagine if we never lied
Imagine if we never tried
To be something we're not
We forgot how it feels
To be tight
To be close
To be real

And I miss you
And I wish you were here
I stopped breathing
When you said you don't care anymore

You're caught up in your plastic life
Changing right before my eyes
A chameleon
I used to know you like the back of my mind
Did that part of you die

And I miss you
And I wish you were here
I stopped breathing
When you said you don't care anymore

And I'm scared
Don't don't leave me alone
I'm home having nothing
Anyway anyway
Standin' on the corner in the pouring rain
Gotta find a drug that will keep me sane
Like you

I watch you from a distance
I remember all of those instances
When you smile
Whe you laugh
When you crash
When I'm there to catch you when you fall

And I miss you
And I wish you were here
I stopped breathing
When you said you don't care anymore
(And I miss you)
Tell me that you're doing fine
(And I wish you were here)
I still remember every time
(I stopped breathing)
And everyone I know will say
(When you said you don't care anymore)
That you are always apart of me
And I miss you like you never knew
And I miss you like you never knew

2008-12-28T20:50:00.003-08:00

i would have done the same thing if i was you.
but i'm awesome at making bad decisions.
i'm the most epic of all failures, yet, i'm willing to give my gift to you.
just for a minute or two.
humor me a little, maybe i'll take it easy.
i doubt it though..
you're just lucky i don't have a car, and have a record.
i'll put you're attempts to shame... i'll get it over for you.
trust me, i can loose myself.
get lost in moments.
in the fury, spite, envy, call it what you will.
you're the alpha, i'm the omega.
just remember that.
the cycle only goes once.

2008-12-27T07:53:00.004-08:00

PWAD.

2008-12-26T07:13:00.004-08:00

There's so much fake love in the world.
It makes me wonder where they're hiding all the real stuff.
[Probably in my enormous muffin top]
But, what I am trying to say here is we've all seen it.
The girls that fall head over heals in love with the guy.
..20 seconds after meeting him.
But she's in love, he's in love, they're in love.
To them it's such a great love, overpowering.
It goes something like "I love you So and So with everything I am
You are my true, love you mean everything to me,
I love you more than anything in the world.
:* 12-25-08"
You mean to tell me you have such feeling after one day of being together?
Jesus crist.
I mean c'mon. I love my boyfriend about that much.
We dated like a month and some before I was even content I really loved him.
That would be because love it's more in depth.
Yeah, I'm saying "love at first sight" is not true,
on the contrary "lust at first sight" is very real.
It's that spark before the flame, and it doesn't happen overnight.
So, If you really can say you love someone that much, fine w/e.
Just remember you're open to heartbrake..
Oh, and me blogging about how stupid you are.
Don't worry; It never fails.

2008-12-24T10:34:00.003-08:00

it's almost christmas.
:]

2008-12-22T17:51:00.003-08:00

we have something special.
spend some times around us; you'll see.

I love my life.
I love my mom and my dad, and my other mom.
I love my sisters and my brothers.
I love the sun and the stars.
I'm just so happy.
I'm just so happy.
I'm just so happy..

2008-12-21T19:54:00.004-08:00

if you have aim, and have a gay sign in noise.
i'm deleting you.
kthxbye!

2008-12-21T09:04:00.004-08:00

i honk at turkeys.